*hugs back* Please don't feel sorry for me. I can't - both in the sense that it isn't good for me and also when I compare my lot to others - feel sorry for myself. I won't pretend it's fun, but it isn't wretched unless I let it be. I'm very, very lucky - I live in a country with free healthcare and good benefits (in spite of all the DWP are doing to them) and I have an excellent family, a brilliant carer and access to the internet and fandom. Ten years in and six years since I was last able to work, it's... endurable. And if I can write or draw on my good days, maybe I can even make it worthwhile. :)